'It Doesn't Hurt to Smile'?

"I'm born free but they still hate, I'm born me, no I can't change. It's always darkest just before the dawn. So stay awake with me, let's prove them wrong"
                                                                                                                                                                                                -Rise Against, "Make It Stop (September's Children)

Heh.... I kinda didn't want to post this because everything in the background part actually happened. (With the exception that I tried to act tough to scare them off and it  backfired) I got picked on until high school, Had broken family relationships, tried to help my brother when he got jumped(caught a nosebleed from a fist to a face), I hold my mom up, considered suicide, and (the cherry on top) I was hit by an SUV back in November 2013. 
Now, like most D.A. artists would do(Some of which I admire as amazing artists but I'm so damn afraid to say 'Hi' or 'Could you give me advice about my art' or 'TAKE ME UNDER YOUR TUTELAGE!'), You're either supposed to write it out in a journal or not at all. However, my ex psychologist(I stopped visiting her because she kept bringing up the past. My Self consciousness does that enough thank you) told me that the best way to cope with those feelings is to draw it out. This was gonna be at the back of my folder but my cousin insisted on me posting it.
Oh! Another thing:THIS ISN"T A CRY FOR ATTENTION.(Hell if I wanted that I'd break stuff in my house. That's how rich people do it right(Even though I'm FAR Far faaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrr from rich))
If there's anyone who feels the same way, I'm honestly free to chat with you, all in confidentiality.

Sorry for the ramble I'll take it down if you want me to.........
All of dis was pen and pencil though!